ok, been a little while since i was here. things are well. i have been at my new store location for about 6mon and loving it. we are back down to only 1 car, thus i have changed my availability yet again, and it is limiting me from the promotion that i deserve. however, i am still working full time hours, so nothing to complain about. since the location change, we havent been going to church as much, well actual, not at all. i work most saturdays, so sundays are my only real day to get things done around the house and to enjoy some peace. do i miss church, yes! then why do we not go, that is unclear to me. anyhow, things are great. the children are healthy and doing well in school. all our needs are being met!! so, i must go as the washer just buzzed!! must finish the laundry. will chat again soon.

Lost, can I be found?

Had a dream last night; or very early this morning rather. I was walking on a city street. My son was with me, and I couldn't remember were I had parked the car. I was lost. My son decided to keep walking forward; very sure he would be safe! My daughter was behind me; whereever my car was. I had to find her! I had to stop him!! I was LOST! I had a GPS in my hand, but it was of no use; as I didnt know where I was. Then a man appeared and spoke to me. He said "Everyone has a built in GPS chip; you are not lost to ME! Have faith you will find your way. Go get your son, as he is not ready to be on his own. Then walk the path that is before you. Do not stray. You will find what you are looking for." I awoke with such sadness that I had lost my daughter and my son. Then I realized that they were not lost. I was the one that was lost; as I am to guide them in the way they should go. How can I lead my children, if I do not know where I am going. This dream was an insight to what I need to do. I need to stay on the path before me. I need not stray. I will find what I am looking for. What am I looking for? Will I know it when I see it? I will walk and not stray, and see where it leads me. Thank you Jesus!!

well, the new year is half over and i havent been true to me at all. i am still working for pennies, i have not gotten enrolled in school, and my prayer life is next to nothing. i also havent been taking great care of my body either. i know that i should eat more regularly and control my portions, exercise and drink plenty of water, but who has the time to remember all of that; especially when you are trying to figure out other things like, how the bills are going to get paid, your car is going to get fixed, the title is going to get paid, daycamp and field trips paid... the list goes on. there is good news though.. the one thing i have been waiting for for a very long time finally happened. so, this year is a good year. i have a loving and supportive church family, i have a job, my children are happy and healthy...so things are not as bad as they seem.. so i should just pray, let go and let God!!!